Missing In Action

So I've gone a little M.I.A. the past few months. When I last left you, I believe I had just graduated and was preparing for my internship in May and, most importantly, my wedding in August. Well, it is now January and I've completely left you hanging on what's been going on in my life.

As you may have guessed, I completed my internship to fulfill my degree (Yes! I'm a college graduate now!) and tied the knot. Whew! The past five months have flown by, and I can hardly believe that King and I have been married that long already. The original plan for our family was that I was going to go back to school at the end of August and start working toward my Master's degree. To keep things short, let's just say that going down that particular path wasn't right for me, or for our family for that matter. Going back to school and working as a graduate assistant was going to leave hardly any time for anything or anyone else, and that just didn't coincide with my new priority shift. All my life I have focused on my education and put everything else aside so I could get ahead in school and be the absolute best, while my friendships and relationships got pushed to the back-burner. Well, now I have a totally different outlook on life. I find myself longing to live a more simplistic lifestyle, although I have yet to accomplish many of the things that I said I wanted to do.

Yes, I tried out the housewife thing for a few months but decided I couldn't stay home by myself day in and day out. So instead, I got a part-time job working at the library in my neighboring county. I only work a few days a week, which gives me a lot more time to spend with the hubby on his days off during the week. I guess you could say I'm a part-time housewife. I have yet to regret my decision to put school aside and put my family first. I think we're definitely heading in the right direction for making a long, happy, and lasting marriage.

Unfortunately, my decision to forego school has not led (as of yet) to all the other things I wanted to accomplish. I still want to learn to cook better, I still want to try my hand at sewing, and I still want to get my house painted and looking like the sweet, little country farmhouse that I know it has the potential to be. I still want to get fit and have a work-out routine down pat, and I still want to be a good housekeeper. As someone who never had to lift a finger helping my mother out at home, I sometimes find marriage to be a little overwhelming, simply because I worry that my wifely duties are not up to par. I know that these changes don't happen overnight, but I sure wish they would. I look around and see a lot of my friends who are able to do so much more than me, and then I'm just reminded again that I haven't lived up to all the things I said that I wanted to change about myself. So instead of feeling sorry for myself, I've decided to take a little action and set down some goals. Stay tuned for my next blog. I hope to have some realistic goals set in place for the coming year!